For Better or For Worse

L.A. Class-Reading Blog-Comic

   All of us, no matter our current age, are at least somewhat familiar with the emotional downfall of feeling as though something is wrong with our self appearance. More common amongst the females of our species, this comic line highlights the internal moaning of a girl named April in Junior High, plagued with a part of being a teenager; acne. It seems to send April into a depressive mood, not speaking much and becoming angry at the products that promise help, but don't work-or at least not soon enough for her.

   Though the surface mostly speaks of the bumpy red nuisances, the comic itself appears to hold a deeper meaning, one of how females tend to view themselves. Throughout the story, it appears that April finds herself distinctly unattractive because of her physical looks, seen through lines such as, "I am so gross-looking, disgusting, and..." along with ones such as, "I wish I was invisible.". However, it isn't just April that feels unattractive. Despite her acne, it is shown that others still find her pretty (the other girl in the bathroom who wished she had April's figure).

   It isn't just acne that assaults the mind with thoughts of being ugly-its simply the one portrayed in the comic by the choice of the author. It is to be remembered that the other girl in the bathroom, who was not touched by acne as far as we could see, still felt insecure of herself.

   In general, it appears that the main idea of this comic plot line is that no matter how you think you look, there may always be someone to think you are attractive. Even of there are those who do not, such as Becky when she began to make fun of April. It is likely that those are the people who will not matter in the long run of your life, though people tend to be unable to ignore them. Either way, they are not to people to listen to, because there is always someone who will wish they had a feature of yours, even if you feel disgusting. Insecurity in not uncommon.

Living to 100

L.A. Class-Reading Blog-Article

   This article runs through the idea of living to be century old, and why some people may be more likely to do so. It is a common misconception that living to a certain age is all due to the information coded into your chromosomes-that is, in your DNA. DNA provides the framework for your cells, detailing how you look, if you are more predisposed to contract certain illnesses, and other things such as if you are more likely to live to a certain age. However, it does not do all the work.

   How a person cares for themselves or is/was cared for also describes what age they may live to the article provides many examples of these variables, such weight, smoking habits, gender, or how well they handle stress. At the bottom of the article it tells of an old man, at one hundred and two years of age, that seems to have the love of life that a much younger person should. The article claims this to be proof that you don't need to necessarily need to be young to feel a 'zest' (as said in the article) for life.

   The general statement that the article seems to attempting to convey is that your life is truly in your hands. You can act out a lifestyle that, even if your genes predispose you to a longer life, will cause your death at an early age. If you desire to live as long as you can, you can't leave it up to your genetics. You do need to take matters into your hands to some degree. And if you live to be a ripe old age, you don't actually need to be the typical 'old' man or woman. It's all in your hands. It's your life, so choose your actions carefully.

Chick's Story

L.A. Class-Reading Blog-Novel Exerpt 

   This story characterizes the unhappy, spiraling life of a man who seems to have lost everything he once had in his life that provided him reason to stay alive. In the writing, it seems as though he's not asking for sympathy or empathy-he's asking to be heard.

   Once his mother died, the man fell into a deep depression, reliving bits of his past through memories, imaging that his mother was still there to be with him and his family. That everything was as it s before and it was all pay. He allowed this desire to grow and fester, and by doing so it overtook his entire life.

   Becoming estranged from his family through drinking and money issues, it would appear as through the only time he ever received contact from his now 'former' family after his family left him was when his daughter got married. She notified him, and that was all, with her new name signed at the bottom. This new information, which really brought home to him how far he had fallen from where he once was- that he couldn't even be a part of his daughter's life anymore.
 
   By the continues fall of his life, the man in the story-whose name is not provided to us unless we go by what his mother used to call him, Charley-felt that he was passed his limit. And it's true, what was said-there is no single line to say if you're too far gone, or feel too far gone to be saved. It could be the littlest thing that pushes you over the edge.

Why I Write

L.A. Class-Reading Blog-Memoir

   This memoir, written by George Orwell, gives us a look into the well known writer's background.  We are told that this is done because he believes that one cannot properly judge how well a writer writes unless we know something of his or her motivations for writing and why that's person writes-     what that person's motivations for sharing stories with the rest of the world.

   Despite telling us that he was writing for years, throughout his childhood and into his adult life, excluding a dry period where he abandoned his more artistic side, he seems to think that he isn't very good at writing. Based off the line near the end, "every book is a failure,". There is another way for that to be interpreted, however. It could mean that he recognizes that there will always be those that dislike his books, and there will always be a critic that gives it a bad review.

   Throughout the short view into George Orwell's life, we are given the idea that he is humble, and has decided to keep going, and ignore those that don't favour his writing. He says that he writes for a purpose- and that purpose is to not entertain, but to inform and occasionally protest to what he finds to be wrongdoings in the government.

 

Running the table

L.A. Class-Reading Blog-Short Story (Non-Fiction)

   

This short non-fiction story begins with an insight at the life of the author- Frank Conroy- at the rebellious and chaotic age of fifteen in the city commonly known as ‘The Big Apple’; New York City. We are graced with the knowledge of the boy’s adolescent behavioural patterns and problems, such as occasional theft. Frank begins by letting us know his theory on why he enjoyed and still seems to enjoy the game of pool or billiards as much as he did. He found it as an escape for his current life, where everything was aimless to a more ordered place. To where he was properly known by people, and known for a reason besides something embarrassing, such as rumour or a mistake made. It is to be noted how it’s said that Frank appeared to be non-existent in his school life, so being someone in the game of pool would have made him feel wanted and needed.

  Frank recounts how he first wandered in the pool house known as Julian’s.  Wandering pointlessly on a street and then impulsively walking through the doors that led to the place he would soon be at much more often. Here at the pool house he learned how to play, which in reality meant so much more to him. It brought him an inner peace by allowing him to vent into the game rather than at people. This was most likely the reason that he played alone most of the time rather than with another person.

  

    As the story progresses, we are allowed a flash into the present time for when this was written. The author, as a much older man, is sitting on a deserted bench in a Zen rock garden. For those who missed the point of this story and thought it to be about the game of pool, this section would make little sense. The rock garden makes him think of the peace that he found in the game of pool when he was much younger because rock gardens are meant to be relaxing places.

  

  The author most likely could have picked anything for this story-any part of his younger life that calmed him, any comfort that he had in his youth. But pool brought him a sense of achievement and recognition when the inner turmoil he faced was quelled, which made the experiences he had much more worthwhile than what they may have been had it been any other escape he had when he was teenager.

   

  The bottom line that this story aims to instill in the reader (provided that they perceive the meaning beyond the game of pool or billiards) was how much of an escape the game was. That it’s more beneficial to you and everyone around you to vent your anger at life into something besides your daily activates, and perhaps be productive with it at the same time. Even far later in life, the game still brought a feeling of calm to Frank because of his use of it as an escape when he was younger. The main idea was to let the reader know that there is more to be done when you direct anger or frustration into a certain field than if you simply act upon impulsive feelings, a lesson that should probably be remembered.

The Marine Excursion of the Knights of Pythias

L.A. Class-Reading Blog-Short Story (Fiction)

   The general feeling when the story begins is one of excitement and urgency which is cloaked over us by the narrator, who seems to be Mariposian (a member of the town in question). The writer is very particular about being sure that it is understood that the boat leaves at seven in the morning exactly. He seems to show a great love of the event, shown by the way exclamation marks are used-namely, their frequency.  The story itself tells the tale that begins as rather dramatic and in the end holds a happier feeling.

  The general plot is that many of the Mariposians have been looking forward to the marine excursion the boat the ‘Mariposian Belle’. Whilst on said trip, the boat ‘sinks’ by taking on some water and then hits the bottom of the lake. It doesn't go very far-honestly, you can hardly call it sinking-and we are told that it happens often. All they need to do is take the people home in other boats and then let it rise for a while after all the weight is gone.

  

Through use of dry humour, the story keeps our attention without causing any audible laughter. It is somewhat of a difficult read for those who are not used to the language structures of the time period, given that it was written roughly one hundred years ago. Despite the time gap, the read is an enjoyable one.

The Phantom of the Opera: Behind the Book

(L.A. Class- Reading Blog-Novel)

                

    There is virtually nothing in this book that isn't meant to touch humanity on a deeper level than the surface. Everything was Erik's way of dealing with the hatred that he is forced to endure to Christine's child-like personality pulls at some level of our subconscious and attacks our feelings. Erik may be the villain but it's hard to see him as simply the antagonist and nothing more than that. 

    As is shown throughout the novel, the entire Opera House seems to fear Erik- not for his more violent and vicious nature, but for his appearance- the yellowed skin that was stretched across a skeletal frame and a nose-less face too tightly, with burning amber irises that threatened death in the darkness to those who dared to gaze upon him. And given the time frame of the late eighteen hundreds, he would have had only one defence; the inky black mask that he used to cover his head. That mask would have been the most important object he owned besides his organ and the music he created with said organ (often mistaken for a piano). Had Erik not been plagued by his corpse-like deformity, it is likely that he would not have needed to endure the life he did, where nearly everyone was frightened of him.

   It is somewhat understandable that those who encountered him would have been frightened-Erik was not, as stated before, a handsome man and his personality also left something to be desired. Perhaps it was largely due to his childhood and the fact that was more than likely abandoned by his mother at some point, but there is some reason that Erik has developed quite a few mental illnesses. Some of them were most likely inherited from his mother or father, whoever they were. 

   One of the disorders that Erik displays symptoms for is Asperger's Syndrome. It can be seen through things such as his lack of empathy towards those who become harmed by him or his actions, and his understanding of language (it is implied that he has always been able to understand things that others had difficulty with as a child)-it is no secret that Erik is a genius. However, there is more evidence against this than there is for it. He is by far more creative than he is logical, a trait that those who have Asperger's often have. It would seem that the Phantom is able to understand the emotions put forth by both himself and others, something that individual with Asperger's Syndrome would have a hard time doing. People who suffer from Asperger’s Syndrome may also have difficulties with understanding things such as pitch, and issue that the Phantom of the Opera (also known as the Angel of Music) does not have. It is more likely that this is not one the disorders he possesses.

    One of the mental illnesses that it is more possible for him to be afflicted with is physcopathy. Erik does not seem to hold any kind of remorse for his actions, nor does he properly take responsibility for said actions. He blames them on the managers or others, saying they provoked him into this. He most definitely has a parasitic lifestyle, leeching money, housing, entertainment, and companionship from the Opera House. He is very impulsive and does not seem to realize the long term effects of his behaviour. Quite obviously he has behavioral problems that have resulted in a more violent side, allowing for a criminal nature. These are some of the few symptoms he displays. Based off this evidence, it seems believable that Erik is a true physcopath.

   This is, however, not where it stops; Erik still has many more issues with his mind. Another possible ailment may be depression. This one is rather obvious, characterized by the fact that he is, unless angry, almost always feeling very low. It is involved in every aspect of his life, from his music to his personal relations. Erik tends to think of himself as being worthless, unloved, and hopeless among other things. He is very withdrawn from other people, and tends to think of the idea of death or suicide as favourable (as shown in the end, when he was not opposed to Christine choosing the grasshopper.). The Phantom also certainly suffers from insomnia, a common affliction among those with depression. He rarely sleeps, rarely eats (which explains his very thin body) and his most commonly shown moods are either agitation or lethargy. These combined with other such facts lead to the belief that Erik is clinically depressed.

   There is an exceptionally lost list for all of the possible mental problems Erik had, excluding the physical ones such as possible jaundice (which would explain why his skin was yellow, and not white or another ‘human’ colour) and necrosis (which would be cause for the good majority of his deformities). Focusing on mental disorders, another one may be bipolar disorder. It is no secret that Erik felt his emotions at what seemed to be an elevated state compared to the rest of people. This may be an explanation for the previous theory of depression, as those with bipolar disorder tend to go through stages of depression, mania, and hypomania. In Erik, the depressive state was already discussed. When it comes to mania, the evidence stacks up: when composing, his attention span is nearly none existent (anything can distract him), he often engaged in behaviour that was ‘risky’, and was often violent, to list a few. For hypomania, it was shown as a much decreased need for sleep (an alternative to the former insomnia theory), being very productive, and he has never, as far as we are aware, had hallucinations or delusions. It is likely that Erik suffered from a form of bipolar disorder, if not depression and anxiety.

   There is also the matter of Erik consistently speaking in third person. There is the idea that he does this so as to separate himself from his looks, which have been the main cause of anything that has ever gone wrong for him. Perhaps he is doing that so he can justify his actions by seeing it from a third person point of view. It is not to be confused with Dissociative Identity Disorder, as he does not create a new person for this. It’s still him acting, talking, and thinking- it’s simply from a third person point of view so that he may distance himself from his actions and the reaction he receives from said actions.

    Though there are many more possibilities for a mental disorder when it comes to Erik, they shall not be all listed here or this analysis would never end. One final theory is for paranoid personality disorder. Erik has always been portrayed as being suspicious of other humans, a trait that most likely stems from his treatment as a child; though not gone very far into, we are made aware that it was not overly pleasant. The Phantom is very withdrawn from society and isolated by his own will, and has a tendency to hold a grudge against someone as well as see any new person as being immediately hostile towards him. These all show textbook symptoms of paranoid personality disorder, which is feasible for Erik to have given what we know about both his past and the events of the book; namely, how he has been treated.

   There were few who desired to show Erik some compassion or even an emotion beyond fear, hatred, or perhaps even exasperation, such as what the managers Messrs Armand Moncharmin and Firmin Richard along with their predecessors Messrs Debienne and Poligny. Madam Giry is among those few people who acted with humanity towards the Phantom of the Opera- she did as he asked, without question, because he asked nicely and treated her kindly. He gave her things in return, and he was never cruel to her, do despite knowing his reputation, she acted kindly towards him. Perhaps part of it was because of his history at the Opera House, but it is likely that a good portion of the reason is that he treated her as a human. 

   The Persian-depending on whether or not you've read 'Phantom' by Susan Kay, you may know him as the Daroga or Nadir-is also in the group that behaved towards Erik with some semblance of kindness. Though not mentioned in this book, it is likely that the Persian knows more of Erik's likely violent, bloody, and miserable past; he also probably knows what Erik looks like without his mask. Yet he still gives Erik the both the benefit of the doubt and the benefit of acknowledging his intelligence, which would be superior to many; especially that of Christine's; not to mention how the Persian also is not afraid to challenge Erik when he knows that he is doing wrong. He led Raoul to Erik and Christine with no thought for his own life, despite knowing full well what Erik was capable of.

    Christine is the only other person who seems to react with something besides abject terror at first glance to Erik- however; there may be an underlying reason for that. There is the distinct possibility that she also has some sort of a mental disorder. In her case, her naivety is creating the idea that she may be either slightly mentally retarded, or borderline. It is more likely that she reverted to a child-like mentality when her father died, due to her closeness of him, and her mind could not deal with it. So, she went back to the mind she had when everything was going the way she wanted it to.

   This may also be the reason for believing in the Angel of Music- she was searching for a new father figure, and Erik was simply the first one to be there for her and attempt to comfort her when she needed it. Christine wanted to believe that an Angel would be sent from heaven like her father promised her, so she did. The idea that the Angel may have been sent from her father provided her a form of closure; this most likely made her more willing to believe that Erik was telling the truth. It may be the main reason that Christine was drawn to anyone at that time, seeking refuge in Raoul Vicomte de Changy after she discovered Erik to be a fraud.

  One may be inclined to suggest that it not quite love that Erik feels for Christine, but instead infatuation with her voice. He sees little of her personality, yet listens to her sing very often. Because music is his escape, it is possible that he fell in love with the voice, not the person, unlike what is suggested by many of the ‘phans’ (fans of Phantom of the Opera) of this novel or the critics who have read it. It is possible for Erik to feel love, just less likely in this case when he honestly barely knew Christine.

   Raoul himself did not possess and mental or physical issues. However, despite this, I do not believe that he was aware of how much care Christine would need throughout their lives when he fell in love with her. It is likely that he merely thought that she as acting as any woman would have in those circumstances, given that at the time women were the ‘weaker’ sex. It would not have been unreasonable to assume that no one would have caught on to how dependant Christine was on other people until after Erik had been dealt with and they were living in relative peace by themselves.

   Though often exasperated with Christine and her contact with Erik-whom Raoul thinks is a monster and nothing more- Raoul defends her and in the end is ready to sacrifice himself to keep her safe from Erik- it is likely that the only reason he does not run headlong into Erik’s lair to attack him is because of the Persian holding him back so he does not act stupidly. At first he believes Christine to be playing with his heart because of how she works her life around the Phantom and at the start ignores him, he eventually sees that she is terrified of Erik and agrees to protect her.   

   From the start of the book, as the last few paragraphs have shown, the characters are portrayed as very complex and dynamic creatures; none quite as many sided as Erik himself. However complicated the characters are, however, the story itself has a very simple plot. The pervading idea is that Erik has spent many a year tormenting the managers of the Opera House, only for the new ones to take action against him. Because they insist on keeping La Carlotta, whom he hates with a passion, as the Prima Donna of the Opera House, Erik ensures that they must put Christine Daae, his student (Whom believes that she has been taught by the Angel of Music, sent by her father from heaven), to sing in  her place. When she discovers that Erik has been lying to her and is merely a man, she is terrified of what he will do if she angers him. Erik is plagued by an unrequited love for Christine, and goes to extremes to please her. In the end, he kidnaps her and forces her to choose between the scorpion or the grasshopper-between marrying him and igniting barrels of gunpowder underneath the Opera House- and she chooses the scorpion. However, in the end, he lets her go and later explains the events to the Persian, who went with Raoul de Changy to rescue Christine. Erik explains that he is going to die and leaves.

   This book is very well written. There is no one who will say that the characters are flat or static, nor would anyone say that the story is not one that touches the heart. On some level, the Phantom of the Opera will always wrench at a person’s ‘heartstrings’, whether through Erik’s side with his story of a life of agony, hatred, and bitterness or through Christine’s side of the death of her one family member, her fear of Erik, and the pain of enduring the thoughts of both Raoul and the managers along with anyone else who commented on her association with Erik. Perhaps even Raoul could evoke a person’s emotions through how much he cares for Christine and how willing he is to protect her from Erik, even when it may cost him his life.

   There is little to be said on the similarities between the original book and the variations through film, theatre, or fan fiction; even the ascended fan fiction such as Susan Kay’s novel, which is generally accepted as canon (real within the fandom-that is, real within the universe used by the story.). The story in the classic book is much darker, less of a romance and more of a horror story than it is anything else. Yet it bounces back and forth between genres as it goes from chapter to chapter, including elements of things such as backstage soap opera to horror, humour to romance, and a small amount of tragedy as well. It is more difficult to see how Christine could have loved him than it is in the various adaptations, which is how it was supposed to be. As much as we would all like to think otherwise, Erik is still the antagonist of this story, and always will be no matter how many different sides Gaston Leroux or anyone gives him to appear more human and broken.  

   This is not to say, however, that the book is without flaws. Many can see it as the classic ‘love triangle’ where a beautiful young girl must choose between the exciting, darker man and the tender, loving, but somewhat boring man. There is little argument against this- at its heart, this book is a love triangle. However, it is a well done love triangle which is what truly matters. Few of our modern day plot lines such as this are able to bring tears to one’s eyes or make them feel the terror that a character feels (which can be done in this book, depending on how strongly you attach to the characters.).

   Though the book may not seem to have the charms that modern day books do, it is a good enough story that people are still reading it over a hundred years later (it was written in 1909) and those who have already done so keep going back to it. Movies are still being made, fan fiction still created, musicals still being produced and performed. It is no secret that The Phantom of the Opera is one of the many favourite books the people in North America have, not to mention persons from other countries and continents as well.

   In the end, despite any flaws it may have the book hold a rich plot line with dynamic characters that tug at your emotions. It goes in depth with the characters, even besides giving the traits for possible mental disorders, and even with the settings. Everything adds something to the story, and it would not be complete without it. It takes a well known plot line, and turns it into a new idea that no one has ever seen, and it is not a book to be forgotten on the top shelf.

   The Phantom of the Opera has captivated audiences for generations, and it seems as though it will not disappoint in the future. With so many different layers to every part of the book, whether characters, setting, time periods, or objects used within the book, it is made to feel as if you are actually there more than many other books have done. It is a recommended read and not a book to be passed over. The novel is one of the best books that I personally have read to date. It has been, and always will be, a personal favourite.

   

How to Make Toast

   To make toast, you first need to find a loaf of bread, preferably your favorite type-such as whole grain, white, seed loaf, or olive loaf. Take one or more pieces, and then find a working toaster and a working socket to plug it into.

   Plug in the toaster and adjust the dial on the side to a certain number. This number tells you how long the bread will toast for. The higher the number, the longer it toasts, so if you want dark toast go to a higher number. If you want light toast go to a lower number.

   Place one or two slices of your bread in the slots at the top of the toaster. Do not force them in farther then they fall at first. Do not put anything else in the slots other than bread of some type (bread, bagel, English muffin, etc.). Push the lever on the side and wait.

   When the toast pops up, it is done. Find a clean plate and carefully transfer the toast to the plate. Wait for a minute until the toast is cool enough to handle comfortably. Add any topping you desire, such as peanut butter, margarine, jam or jelly, or honey. Repeat the process if you have more than two slices of bread. Enjoy your fresh toast. 

Rain (A Haiku)

In the cool forest
I walk through the falling rain
And I feel refreshed

(Picture Link: http://images4.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20100523222848/reddeadredemption/images/f/f2/Rain24-hours.jpg)

Why Should We

(A Rondeau)

Why should we endure the hate
Feel the pain when it's too late
Why is there no way out
No matter how much we scream and shout?
Is it just fate?

Is it just death we await?
I can finally see Hell's Gate
Filled with doubt
Why should we?

There's nothing to set straight
We can't have a clean slate
We've hit an emotional drought
And lost what we can't live without
I don't think I want to wait
Why should we?

For Love Of Another (English Sonnet)

One day you may find that feelings fade
And you no longer feel for a person
Whom for once you prayed
That your relationship with them will worsen.

Yet your life is not yet through
And you can find another
Love will see you to
The meeting of some other.

There is someone out there
Who will always love you,
Who will breathe the same air,
Who's love will always be true

You will find your soul mate-
You will not be abandoned by fate.

In the Mountains (Italian Sonnet, love based)

(Picture credit to my sister. Taken in Banff) (rhyme scheme: abba abba cdcdcd = Italian Sonnet)

In the mountains where trees grow
I feel at home, clean and free
So much beauty I can see-
Just listening to the birds crow.

Where the rivers flow
And the cold is softened with tea
Watching the mountain as down rolls scree.
Taking along with it some snow.

Mist covers the tops of the rocks
Making red of your cold cheeks
It is heaven to take walks
In the fog enveloping the snowy peaks!
There among the faded plant stalks
I could spend the rest of my life in weeks.

The Sky (Image Poem)

The Sky

Why does it rain?
Could it be the sky's way
Of saying it's in pain?
What could it be trying to say?

Why do the clouds cover the sky?
Is it trying to hide the beauty of the blue?
Are they jealous, or is the blue a lie?
Perhaps instead it should be jealous of the dew-

Sweet smelling and short lived,
Even if it returns to the sky,
It is to be envied-
Living on Earth before once more to the sky it can fly.

(Picture credit to my sister. Taken in Banff.)

The Unknown

A poem of the fear of the unknown.

The Unknown

We know it,
Yet we can't speak to it.
We comprehend it,
Yet we can't possibly understand it.
We can try to find the answer,
Yet we can't ever finish the search.
We can feel it around us,
Yet we can't see it or hear it.
We are always aware of it,
Yet we can't ever do anything about it.
We know it looms over us,
Yet we can't ever meet it.

The unknown will haunt us,
Never letting us go,
We always want to know more,
But there is no end to our search.
We can never stop it,
And we will always fear it-
Consuming,
Looming,
A darkness that holds no life or death.

Writer

Based off the poem Skier by Robert Francis

Writer

She lifts the pen like a ballet dancer
At last performing
A graceful, perfect spin

The quiet of the room reflects
The quiet of the mind in  the room.

Thought is her sole enemy
Keeping her away from needed
Ideas.

With bright eyes, she begins to
Paint a worded picture
Story never finished,
Always writing.

My Parent's Home

Based off the poem My Father's Chair

My Parent's Home

There are four corners to my parent's home
Happiness, sadness, death and life
I visit them all, equally known,
It is not with weakness rife.

I couldn't trust any less than four
To support them where they lay
I can't have any less or more
No matter what people say.

I can't prefer one over the other,
This land that will one day hold me
Here forever are my father and mother
Eventually it will hold us all, you see.

When my time comes to be layed down,
Remember how I loved each corner
In sorrow do not drown,
And instead be a happy mourner.